oh by the way….

i AM DUMB.

bah

it is like i set myself up for these things.

it’s not like i meant for this to happen

but i am not sorry it did

i know soon i will be

but for now i can’t help but to get caught up in this moment

this is something out of a movie or a story book

but i am the villain and i do not think i will win in the end 

but maybe there will be a change of fate

and i won’t have to feel the inevitable downfall  of this current infatuation

LIFe.

best night ever last night

went to class drunk

free drinks the entire night

cutest bartender

<3life.

bye.

HELLO ny so soon

i miss my pepa 

i don’t know how we are supposed to celebrate the holidays without him

i feel like being away from home no one cares or realizes that i lost someone so close to me. it is the weirdest thing. i find myself breaking down about it randomly. but i do not know what i am meant to do. i can’t wait to get home. 

i need to slow down

i am going far to fast

and i do not know where i am heading

everything is going to catch up with me soon

it is a very good thing i am going home

although shit is only going to get weirder there.

please.

lol.

my life is a giant never ending circle…round…loopy circle 

i swear ill be this way forever

i want it all

all the time

i have no regard for whats right or wrong

i barley listen to what people say to me

bah bah baaaaaaa

i dunno if i care. 

You’re single, correct?

yes i am

Do you want a relationship?

no i do not want one, but i also do not want random people 

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?

what the fuck am i doing.

Your best friend gets drunk after one shot, you say?

you need to get you’re shit together….but none of them do

Where’s the person you are currently involved with?

not with me, thats all i know

At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?

taking this survey, talking with marcela, thinking about how absurd my life is

Have you ever been cheated on?

yes, thanks for that bubba

How do you feel about girls who smoke?

either weed or boges, i dont cur do your thing, just don’t be a burn no one likes that  

Have you ever been in a perfect relationship?

there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, plus if there was one i would be bored in it anyways

Are you uncomfortable staring into someones eyes who likes you?

yeah i get ze butterflies i wike it

Baseball or football?

baseball

Lyrics to the song you’re listening to?

no clue, its like instrumental

Are your parents divorced?

nope

Is the person you last texted in a relationship?

no, obviously doesn’t want one either

Has anyone called you perfect before?

yeah, but dat shit aint true

Were you single on your last birthday?

no i was not

Where did you grow up?

long island

If somebody liked you, would you want them to tell you?

yes i would, unless theyre creepers

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

yeah, but probably not the person i would like it to be

Do you like “good morning” texts?

yeah i dew

When someone says “We need to talk,” what runs through your mind?

shit is about to get fucked. it is never good. i think about everything i could have done wrong 

Is there someone you want to punch in the face?

yes!!

Name something you like about winter?

warm blankets, hot chocolate, snow angles, chirstmas, smell of cinnamon , family, and good food

Have your past mistakes made you wiser?

i would like to say yes, but i keep making the same mistakes

What’s your favorite color?

red

Who do you text the most?

the core, berm, dumb boys, 

Wouldn’t it be kinda annoying to have to share a bed every night? 

naht if the person is a good cuddler

If the last person you kissed bumped into you at school, what would they say? 

it usually goes, hi, then i start laughing and walk away

Would you rather be called honey or baby?

baby, hate the term honey

You walk past your most recent ex in the street, what do you say? 

holy shit! hi, i miss you!

Is there someone that you miss being close with? 

yeah my friends who live AROUND the world come home<333

Have you ever fallen asleep in a guys arms? 

yiyip

Does anyone completely understand you?

potentially, maybe not fully, but i do not even understand myself.  

Are you into romance?

yes give it to me

Ever kissed in the rain? 

yeah i like it

In the last 12 months can you say you truly cared about someone? 

my boy

You were single last month, why?

yes, because me and my boyfriend broke up

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

i probably will..god dammned child 

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?

everyone!

If you were pregnant, who is the first person you would tell?

berm

Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now?

yes, full of regret afterwards but still want it

Have you ever held hands with someone in a car?

yeah i love holding pat hands while he drives

How’s your heart?

weak

Have you ever kissed just a friend?

yeah i makeout with my friends all the time.

Do you know anyone who’s done ecstasy?

molly~~ soooo cool

Would you rather get 1, 12, or 24 roses?

id take any amount of roses, but i wont get none

What is one thing you will not tolerate in a relationship?

cheating, when they ignore me, treating me like i am nothing

What is something you like to do when you’re down?

listen to good music, hangout with good people, and get fucked up

and or i will work out ahah

Are you wearing make up?

ish

Have you ever kissed someone inside a vehicle?  

yeso

Do you believe teenagers can fall in love?  

yeah biddie

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?

i love my roomies, id never be able to be alone 24/7

Have you ever received a text message that made you cry?

yeah hate it

Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?

white loyola shirt

repppppppin mah shit

Will you regret your next kiss?

most likely….BAH

Would you get with a teacher to pass a class you were failing? 

if he was hot…hah

What was the reason behind why you last cried?

my heart was being hurt

Where was the last place you slept besides your bed?

i dunno piersons bed last night before i woke up from passing out ahaha

Have you ever kissed a football player?

yeah bubbi

Ever kissed a basketball or hockey player, different from the last question?

yeah dated my baller pat

Whats the background on your computer?

me and the bests at prom

Has someone that you liked told you that you are a waste of their time?

um last night?….uhuuhhhh

Ever been called a bitch?

holler for a fucking doller

Are you satisfied with your life as of now?

could be buddah

Have you ever been around someone who was high?

yeah great

Did you enjoy your summer?

wish i could change some things

What’s one thing you actually remember about kindergarten?

finger painting with paige

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?

depends

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

drunk

Do you think its cute when someone kisses your forehead?

yeahhhhhhh ugh

Do you think relationships are even worth it?

yes they are unless you get hurt, oh WAIT you always do

If you had to pick one person to sleep next to every night, who would it be?

 marcy marc whos dur all the time

but i like people who are cozy 

Are you afraid of needles or shots?

ID DIE

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?

my daddd

How is your eyesight?

20/20

realizing i need to spend sometime figuring out my shit

i need to learn to love every part about me

before i can even attempt to allow someone into my life

it just doesn’t make sense otherwise

i shouldn’t have to question why someone loves or even likes me for that matter

me time. begins now.